I woke up in the middle of the night, and all of a sudden, the space between us was much too far…
The practical side of my brain was telling me to just shut my eyes and go back to sleep. We were running on just a few hours a night, and I had homeschool in the morning and a newborn beside me who would undoubtedly be waking me up in an hour anyway. We needed sleep.
But I needed him more.
I sat up, moved the co-sleeper that was safely cradling our infant boy to the side of the bed, and crawled beside him, curling up into the arms that have been faithfully holding me for seven beautiful years.
The months of pregnancy that had built a huge belly between us melted into a distant memory…
I was home.
Tears gathered in my eyes, and my heart sang a silent love song to my husband as I reveled in the security and comfort of his embrace.
I love you…
because I know I don’t deserve you.
because you make me think of God, just by looking at you. His grace is evident to me when you walk into the room.
because you have given me enough beautiful memories to last a lifetime.
because I know without a doubt that you love me back.
because you are mine.
because you are good and kind and gentle, and only grow more so with each passing day.
because when you smile at me and delight in who I am, I feel like I am safe. Cherished. Your dream come true.
because you know all my secrets and scars and you forgive me freely. You love me like I’m flawless, even though we both know that I am not.
because your heart is so tender and your eyes are so watchful. You treat me like I am a priceless treasure…
and being married to you has been the single greatest thing that has ever happened to me.
I never, ever get tired of you, and when you walk out the door, I already want you to come back. There will never be enough days, enough minutes, enough time to spend in your company.
The world lied to me. They told me that marriage would be stifling. That it would be boring. That the honeymoon would be over…
bunch of dummies. They were so wrong.
Life with you is an adventure that never stops, and the more I grow in my love for you, the closer I grow to the God who created that love. You lead me to Him, and so I rejoice in our marriage with every fiber of my being.
And I never, ever want it to stop. If God would be so good, I’d love to spend eternity with your hand in mine…
or at least a lifetime.
I love you, Mr. Gore. Forever and ever.